Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Unit 6 Integral Health Assessment
What I discovered about myself by doing this assessment is that I really still need to work on the psychospiritual aspects of my life in that I have a hard time trusting any organization that is based on religion, for instance, my husband wants to attend Liberty College online to get his Bachelor degree and because it's a "religious" school, I have a hard time feeling good about that. One of my employees at work attends St. Leo and she has such a hard time, the instructors are mean to her and hard on her in an unreasonable manner so that just adds fuel to my fire about not attending a school of that premise. I don't feel however that this is the most essential line of development for me right now, as I do regarding my biological factors, such as losing weight. My current level of development is non-existent since I still have not returned to the gym, I have no idea why I'm not motivated to attend something that I pay for every month. Maybe it's the idea of having to work out alone, I don't know. I'm honestly not sure which area of my life is ready for growth and development, I know that we are getting ready to move to Tennessee next March and perhaps that is an area of growth for me since I have a lot of anxiety about moving somewhere I've never been and don't know anyone. I have no idea what the next level of development would look like except to say I wouldn't experience any anxiety about moving new places and meeting new people. As far as the psychospiritual aspect, I still have not been motivated to return to church even with working twelve hour shifts all weekend, I know I could still get up and go to church on Sundays before I go into work but for some reason I have no desire to. I feel good about my relationship with God, I pray, I meditate and talk with Him as if I went to church every time the doors were open, but I don't have any desire to be around an organized environment. I don't have anything against it, I just don't want to be there I guess. I don't know what I'm going through, I guess all I can do is be still and wait for God to reveal it to me.
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Hello Jada,
ReplyDeleteI too feel the same as you! I do not follow any type of religion, nor am I trusting of religions, because I find them to be hypocritical, and some beliefs are not aligned with anything I believe in. However, I do believe in God, I just don't believe or follow religion, I wish I could, and perhaps I too would be happier, but I just have not found my religious calling. Also, I too do not work out, nor do I have the money to do so. I feel, that I can do sit-ups, push-ups, etc., etc., while I am watching TV and they are free. But I understand where you are coming from, because I too feel the same as you!
I think all these things will happen when you are ready. Sometimes finding the motivation to make the changes we say we want to make is challenging. I think the key is not to be hard on yourself but to take care of yourself through this process. I have this book called "You are Here: Discovering the Magic of the Present Moment" by Thich Nhat Hanh and he talks about just that. I think if you are taking care of yourself through this process of the present moments and focusing on what you can do now you can find the motivation to move beyond your current obstacles. Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteJada,
ReplyDeleteI understand you having your reservations in regards to everything you stated. However, part of it I always believe is opening the mind and not dwelling on what others have told you and not dwelling on excuses for not completing something. I have found that going to church, although organized, is the only place I can have some peace and quiet to focus. There, I can read scripture readings and apply them to current life or challenges I'm facing. As for exercising, I do a lot of it when I'm watching TV (when not on bed rest) such as stretching, sit-ups etc...
Making the initial effort and getting out of the rut instead of dwelling on the negatives is perhaps the best way to start something.